last summer, i had the pleasure of working on the americal idols tour while they were in town, and of course blessed with having adam lambert wander into get a massage.  he was amazingly humble and overwhelmed with the attention he was getting as the runner up on the idols contest.  he was my favorite of all the contestants that year and especially when he sang this song,”mad world“.

i think that if this gets into the ether world, i may get a chance to work on him again some day in the future. lol

i love his new song, listen here: ‘whataya want from me‘.  ‘honey, you are beautiful, nothing wrong with you….whataya want from me’…love it.

this weekend, i am heading down to portland oregon.  i am attending the training for the new indigo quantum biofeedback training which is the digital upgrade for the analogue system that i have in my work now.  it is a 15 year advancement of the system i have now and i was fortunate to be able to upgrade for early bird $3000 rather than now the price is the price of buying a new unit, a whooping $26,000.

I know that this will be the piece that makes biofeedback a reality to my virtual bioenergetic self care model.  it has been a dream of mine to be able to locate anywhere in the world and work.  i have established my integrity and ethics to the point where white lies are not part of my habits.  i know that what i am is the best i can be in this moment and if it is not, i am on top of addressing it as it is.  in this way, i am a mirror to those who use me as a professional advisor to their self care.

being in portland is  real synergy.  why?  because my best girlfriend lives there!  stella bella is and has been there for many milestones…she was there in the grand canyon when i fell.  she was there to see my baby being cut out of my womb.  she has been through every start up i have every endeavored.  remember stella, the blue green era.  you even got to go to klamath lake oregon, before you ever thought to live in oregon.

now i am going to join a biofeedback training center community and as well, portland has a shadowyoga.com shala there.  interesting.  will portland be the next place of living for me?  only time will tell.  i am grateful that vancouver has been such a wonderful home town but my studies must continue and to do that i must be with the people who want to learn what i am learning.  i am a consummate student of the living arts.

my child is now 11 and soon to be a teenager.  i am planning for the next ten years and i know it has to be used wisely to pad the lining of my elder years.

where does time go, one minute i was a youngster figuring out what i was going to do with my life and now, i am happily understanding that i have the rest of my life to create.  creation is a heady business.  ingenuity, intelligence and impeccability  are fine criteria to acheive to. manifestation is the power within all of us to use and develop.

presently, it is a busyness model that i am mapping out.  what to do as a mother, as a woman, as a worker bee.  something that is sane enough but made for my abilities and gives me the stability that i crave.

i have been fortunate in this incarnation, i was born to a good family with amazing values.  it was from a poor beginning but the riches came in forms that i now know are more important than the monetary sums.  i was lucky to have a garden in the back yard my whole life.  the chinese way has been very good to me.  the food was varied.  the principles were real.  honor the parents.  thank your lucky stars for food on the table.  a roof over your head.  love in the heart even though the language was harsh and tonal.  Cantonese is  very loud especially if the speaker is from the land.  it is the city folks that speak in the low and cultured system of the educated.  on the farm, manual labor needs direction and there was not much to lend as sugar coatings.  subsistence farming is not without its hardships.

my mother, who i treasure, is now 82 years old and she is really a fine woman.  now we can laugh together but as a youth in canadian culture, it was a separation that i had to go through to become the person i am now.  understanding comes from experience and she is definitely the teacher in our relationship.  not educated due to her sex and not respected as a female, she was able to reach these years with her ethics and dignity intact.  i love her very much and  think that i am so fortunate to have been led by her example.

oh well, i must finish this blog and get to a yyoga.ca class yhot yoga at 1pm.  get to the infrared sauna to stretch a little.  been in my office for about a couple of hours doing my paper work and writing.  now need to do some physical stuff.  will be picking alex up at the academie duello where he is having a swordplay camp for this week.  he is loving it.  honor, valor, integrity, humbleness, etc.  what a great way to established a baseline of living.  i wish i could go to swordplay camp and work with falcons, swords, archery, battering rods and make shields.

oh well, i am learning to wand, that is part of the healing arts that i am living.

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be well my lovely readers, have a great day yourself!